Over the past several
months my Faith was being tested to the 10th power. To be truly
transparent several things were being tested. My Faith, Integrity, Love,
Forgiveness and Obedience where all being tested. A lot of times we talk a good game but do we
really believe? Do we really posses those things? Do we really want to pay the
price? One cannot preach about something if he has not gone through it, books
will only get you so far!
The
only thing that I want to do for the rest of my life is to be where God is. This
year I have gone to many events and concerts and GOD is NO where to be
found! It is a form
of Godliness but no GOD…Jumping, shouting and then walk out the door and live
the same way. For a second I thought, maybe I am being too deep. Or maybe I was
expecting too much. So, I brought others with me and they said the same thing.
I didn’t have to say a word. In no way
am I saying that I am better and have it all together this is just an
observation that I have noticed over the course of this year. Don’t get me
wrong I love gospel music and concerts. It is a part of my history and runs
though my blood line. Yes there is SOOO much talent out there but where is GOD?
This has become disturbing to me. The
church has become a night club, social event and a hook-up session. My heart
was so grief stricken. At this very event I started praying because I wanted to
know what is going on. I left the event disturb and sad!
As a Professional
Singers I know when my talent/gift is for ministry or the secular industry.
There is a big difference. I have been
fortunate to be a part of both industries. However, what I am referring to is
the “Gospel Industry”. God has allowed
me the opportunity to be on contract as a back-up singer for different artists. This is how I make part of my living. That
part of my life is completely separate. When it
comes to ministry it is a different realm.
I talked to mimi about
this and she has quite a bit of wisdom under her belt and experience. She has
traveled and sang with some the best singers in the world. She knows a lot
about the “Music World”. So of course I trust what she has to say. I needed
know.
“What is happening to
the culture of Gospel music”? I asked. Her words were simple: “No one is teaching and if they are teaching
no one is listening. The spirit of Rebellion has taken over. The motives of
people are not in God and it’s all about them! Everyone wants to be famous but
refuses to accept the process it takes to have the anointing. There is a price
to pay and in order for yokes to be destroyed you must have the anointing
otherwise you are just entertainment”- Andrea Barnes
It was an eye-opener
for me! My mother doesn’t say much but when she does I listen. I felt a lot
better knowing that it wasn’t just me. She was seeing the same thing. Having God’s presence is so important to me
and I refuse to grab a microphone and not have him with me. If that is the case
I need to get somewhere and sit down.
Needless to say I had to reevaluate myself. I had to check my heart and make sure that I
was in line with God. Where I am now in my life, I can’t afford to be playing
with God or the talent/gifts he has given me. Yes I am a “Jesus Girl”… And I
make no apologies for it.
Merry
Christmas and a Happy New Year!
Peace and Blessings!
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