TricaB™ : Love This Man…

This is the perfect time to discuss one of the most important men in my life. Not until recently I discovered the man that I call “daddy” was a divine set up. This man has brought so much LOVE to my world. I didn’t want to wait until “Father’s Day” to honor him. And because of the influence he has had in my life, I would not have wanted it any other way. He doesn’t like much hoopla but he gave me his blessing so here goes.

We first met when I was two years old and they say we fell instantly in love. I became his shadow and wanted to follow him around everywhere he went. Not knowing that he would be a thorn in my flesh later on in life. LOL! The only time we didn’t see eye to eye was when he and my mother would go out on dates. I remember passing out because I felt like “why I am not invited?” (I was suffering from separation anxiety.) LOL! However, we became so attached to each other where most people did not know that he was not my biology father.

When he asked my mother to marry him he made it very clear that “She is my child and we will never use the word “stepfather/stepdaughter” in this house. She is mine now! I can honestly say not one day have I felt the need to otter those words. Most people would argue they don’t believe it or somebody is lying but it is the truth. God put a man in my life that I am proud to call my dad!

This doesn’t take away the D.N.A I carry but it illustrates how awesome God is. It shows the plans that God had set up for me. No I am not ignorant of the blood I carry from the late Rev. James L. Moore, because certain divine musical abilities were passed down to me. He was a musical genius indeed and a heritage that I am proud of.

Just being a little transparent, growing up it was a little uncomfortable to deal with because I didn’t know where to put all of it. And some people were so ignorant and heartless. They would say some horrible things to me and my mother’s. Thank God for Grace and Mercy because there were times when the expression on my mother’s face would be traumatic for me. I knew she wanted to reach down in their throats and rip their tongues out their mouths. Again, Thank God for Jesus! (True story)

I didn’t want my dad to feel bad or less than but it was okay to love the both of them and still honor them. Once I caught the revelation of that, things became a lot easier. Not once did my mother speak negative of who my birth father was. She allowed me the opportunity to see “Him” for myself. And because of that it created a good perspective on the situation and how I viewed men. Because of that I can have a healthy relationship with a man and not put them in the same category. My mother did her best to allow me to figure things out on my own and for me to make my own decision about my birth father.

Life has a way of allowing your eyes to be open and to see the people that are in it. Sometimes scary moments happen in order for “eyes” to be open. A couple weeks ago I took my dad to his doctor appointment and a half hour later they were admitting him and for the first time in my life I thought I was going to lose him. “Not my daddy, the man that has drawn me closer to God. He is gift from God for me. This can’t be happening, I Love This Man”. Trying to console my mother I took a moment for myself and stepped outside and called a good friend of mine. (You know who you are, “Thank You”)

Mentally trying to put all the pieces together and then I prayed. My Prayer: “Lord you said you would never leave me or forsake me, now I need you to help me to be strong for my mother. Whatever pains that I may be feeling numb it with your love In Jesus Name Amen.

Went back into the room gave my dad a pep talk and then loved on my mother. Have to admit it was painful to see my mother so distraught. My mother is usually “wonder woman”, but that was not the case this day. She gave me the “wonder woman ID badge” and I took the role. The pain and the distress that was in her eyes said it all.

When it was time to put my dad in his room he was not happy. He did his very best to convince me and everyone else that nothing was wrong but all along I knew he was not well. God knew this day was coming and he gave me the strength to carry my parents. I feel honored and humbled that God would entrust me with their feelings. Whoever welcomes a prophet as a prophet will receive a prophet's reward, and whoever welcomes a righteous person as a righteous person will receive a righteous person's reward. – Matthew10:41

Despite the doctor’s reports, God prevailed and my father is home and doing well. This was a scary situation for me but my trust in God is much stronger. We hear this all the time appreciate the people in your life. But do we? Those that know the depth of my relationship with my parents know that I am fanatical about them and I could not see life without them. As a matter of fact I don’t even want to imagine that. When I love, I LOVE HARD, one of the many traits that I was born with. Not all will understand but that is okay.

Appreciate those in your life that appreciate you and LOVE HARD for those that love you I guarantee the return will be worth it!- TricaB

Peace and Blessings!