TricaB™ : The Power of Choice

For those that believe in the Power of Choice I dedicate this to you!

I woke up on Sunday morning edgy and off balance. Which is unusually, Sunday’s are my favorite day of the week. It’s been a few weeks that I have been on “Nurse Duty” so most of my focus has been on my mother. However, there is no excuse to wake up “edgy and off balance” on Sunday morning. The real reason is I just did not want to be bothered with people or make myself put on a “FACE”…Was not really interested in pretending.

I had no intention of going to church on Sunday, but it worked out where my father was able to relieve me of my duty. There was a small voice that insisted “GET UP TRICA YOU NEED TO BE AT CHURCH TODAY”. Of course I argued and tried to negotiate with that voice but it was not working. For those of you that have already concluded that I am a perfect little church girl … “NEWS FLASH” -à I’m NOT! Just like the rest of the world I get tired and things get on my last nerve.

I am not afraid to admit that sometimes “TricaB” can be a mess in a half. Still a work in progress! Began to get ready for church and every negative thought that was possible began to rise in my head. Prayed, quoted scriptures, and sang songs, nothing worked. I really struggled inside and could not seem to put my finger on it.

There are times when I feel like am I the only one that is really passionate about God. Many times I get made fun of or even talked about but it doesn’t matter. People automatically assume that I am being “deep” because I chose to put GOD in everything . So what is wrong with that? I am in love with God, it’s just that simple. Would you call it “deep” if you talk about your “Boo” all the time? No I don’t think so. When you are “In Love” with something or someone you want the whole world to know about it. His/Her name is frequently spoken out of your mouth. As a matter of fact they are always in your head. So again, I ask “What is wrong with being in Love with God?”

Please forgive me I digress!

Had a conversation with someone wise and they made it clear that “the gift is not for yourself, it is for the world so use it”! You will wake up many mornings emotions will take over and “putting on face” will not be an alternative. Have you ever had one of those days where you could not find a “face to put on”?

The entire time in the car I was praying because I just knew if somebody says anything that is off the wall I might have to go back to the altar. Like for real “TricaB was not having it”! It sounds funny but this is exactly how I felt and meant every word of it! There is no need to pretend sometimes, it helps to just be honest with yourself. I call it self-assessment.

The word had taken place and I began to feel a lot better. The pastor spoke on “Choices”, we as individuals are responsible for our own success. There is no need to blame the world for things that have not happen in your life. Earlier that week I had already been discussing this exact same issue. As the day began to progress there was a powerful moment that took place around 1:50p.m at church. Those that were present know exactly what I am referring to.

So, I sat back in the seat and humbled myself because I knew something extraordinary was about to take place. It might sound crazy but I felt it! It was my turn to speak and “the gift” began. Before I knew it words of life began to pour out of my spirit. Tears began to fall from my eyes and of course the room was filled with love. My eyes scanned the room and tears were in everyone’s eyes.

There was a real sense of freedom and release for those that were present. I began to see how important “the gift” is. Being present Sunday was ordained by God. It had nothing to do with me; it was about The Power Choice.

The Power of Choice is fascinating to me because one simple act can change an entire room of people. All I did was respond to the voice of God, because I chose to override my feelings. It was hard but well worth it. Many confirmations were made about what was spoken and it made my heart happy. It spite of all the negative things that were running around in my head God knew where my heart was.

This gave me freedom knowing that I could be a blessing to someone. But in reality I was blessing myself. You never know what individuals are praying. My prayer is “Lord keep me at the right place at the right time”. There are a lot of hurting people out there. In ministry it is SO important to be sensitive to the needs of people. ßStill learning! I am guilty of NOT wanting to humble myself in order to hear. I always come up with creative excuses not to listen to the voice of God. But end up paying a price for it. We want God to hear us immediately, so what is the problem? We all have The Power of Choice so I invite you to choose Life!

This day I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life, so that you and your children may live and that you may love the Lord your God, listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. – Deuteronomy 30:19-20

We must believe in free will, we have no choice. - Isaac Bashevis Singer