TricaB™ : Take your time but PLEASE hurry up!

“Take your time but please hurry up” A phrase I have adopted from my grandpa Oliver. Can’t tell you the countless times I have said this phrase. Why do we feel like we need to be in control of everything? Why are we always in a hurry? We rush to bed, rush to sleep, rush to eat, rush to work, rush to get home, and then we rush to do it all over again.

My mother always told me “stop rushing because you are rushing your life away. Enjoy every moment and every second of the day”. It is a reflective statement, it sounds simple but tough. (Please don’t judge what I am about to say!) So of course, that statement is hard for me. Because I am a time conscious individual whom loves words like organize, planning, itineraries, schedule, formats, arrange, deadline, follow-ups etc. Those words excite me. What the heck is up with this girl? You say to yourself. I am just a chic that does not like confusion when it comes to my life. For me, everything must flow and be in order. Order is “pure love” for me and it gives me a sense of peace.

People that know me will agree that even my thoughts are organized in alphabetical order. This could come across as a disorder but I hope not! K . Some would say anal, some would say control issues who knows! I am the strange woman that LOVES logistics. Post-its, notebooks, planners, alarms etc. are things that I use on regular bases to keep me in order. Routine is how I function daily and when my routine is broken it can be challenging for me to adjust.

Ok now that I have rambled on about my issues with order. The lessons behind all of that is I had to learn that you cannot control EVERYTHING in your life it is not possible. Adjustment/Flexibility was something that I was forced to accept. Life has a way of making you relax and take it one day at a time. Once I accepted adjustment/ flexibility things began to make fall into place. I had to let go of the logical part of my nature and lean on the spiritual. This has been my biggest struggle. Constantly learning that the things I can keep in order keep in order and the things that I have no control over let it go. Daily my “will” is always being tested because there is no such thing as complete order ALL the time, it does not exist. Some say that age has a lot to do with it but the jury is still out on that. I can hear my parents say “Be anxious for nothing my child, God has it all under control.”

The next lesson I had to learn is when you ask God to be the center of EVERYTHING you do, you automatically lose control. God cannot work if I am always in the way. When I get in the way or try to give God orders it delays the progress of my prayers which leads to my famous statement “Take your time but please hurry up”. Get out of the way Trica and let God take control. He doesn’t need my help. Just take care of the things you can control and let God handle the rest. Lord keep me in the center of your perfect will not my will but your will be done.

Even though I love logistics God is the creator of logistics. He never makes mistakes, “All things work together for the good of them who love the lord” Romans 8:28 ß---There it is!