TricaB™ : Happy September!

My Holiday weekend was enjoyable! Went down to the Jazz Festival with the lil bro and we had a great time despite the annoying flying bugs. Those things were working on my last nerves. Spending time with the lil bro (jay) was way over due. J I can’t remember the last time we had a chance to hangout like that. Let me just say that “Robert Glasper and the Experiment” were AMAZING. I admire human beings for having capacity to produce such pleasurable sound. It was one of those moments that I have often where I Thank God for my sense of hearing. Music is so influential and effective. It is true; “Music” is a universal language. As I stood there absorbing every note I gazed over the mass of people and noticed serenity on their faces. People and children were grooving, dancing, laughing and enjoying the moment. It always amazes me how little things are so important! The entire time my ear drums were dancing all over the place. It was electrifying. Whew….!

Now on a serious note!

There was a statement my pastor said on Sunday that stuck with me “Ministry is not always glamorous nor is it always fun”. So I began to ponder that these last few days. My interpretation is, REAL ministry comes with a huge price along with an enormous amount of sacrificing and waiting. I had no idea that the things that I wanted and desired as a woman I would have to “Wait” for because of my commitment I made with God.

To be transparent for a minute, my birthday is quickly approaching and to be honest it frightened me because I am looking at “my list” and it is not even close to what I desired for myself. At this age I had something totally different. Let’s just say the script has completely changed and I was completely dumb founded. I am still picking my face up off the floor. In your twenties you have “The list” of things that you want to do and the time that you want to achieve it etc. You are completely naïve about life not knowing that life is going to knock the wind out of you. God sure does have a sense of humor!

I am not having a petty party I am just merely saying that the lights have gone off in my head. DUH!!! If your lights are not going off check your bulb! LOL

Everyday God is reminding me: I run this and you have committed your life and ways to me so I am holding you accountable. So the self assessment began AGAIN…. “Trica you are accountable get your act together and accept what I am doing for you. It’s not going to happen when and how you want it so ADJUST and kill all that other stuff and quit being a block head.” Thank God for grace and mercy because sometimes I can be 3 “S’s” Simple, Silly, & Stubborn! The Lord has a lot of patience with me. Thank God for Jesus! My grandpapa Oliver says all the time: “Excuse the dust I am still under construction, God is not through with me yet”.

Yesterday I had a talk with my dad and we both have come to the conclusion that the word “WAIT” is not our favorite word. Every time I hear that word I start cringing. For me waiting means sacrifice and unwavering patience. So of course “The List” is shredded and out the door. Now on the flip side waiting could be a good thing because the results could be more valuable for example, investing money or savings bonds. The longer you wait the bigger the return. You could withdraw it early but the return will not be to your liking. So “Big returns” come to those who wait and endure the process. Just my opinion! In the meantime I need to take a dose of my own medicine.

Now if you’re waiting on something that has not giving you any proof or manifestation of good return then it could be a bad thing. For example; waiting on a person to change or do something when you know this individual as no intention to follow- through/change. The manifestation of their actions is telling you something completely different. My mother told me watch a person action because that gives you all the information you need. This is so true! This is when waiting can be a cancer to you. My advice would be don’t waste your time waiting unnecessarily. If you are going to wait let it have a purpose and a guaranteed return.

A situation occurred and my parents asked me “What are you waiting for? It is time for you to “Keep it Moving”! I was waiting on a situation to change and I already had the proof right in front of me. The return I was receiving was not worth it. The proof was the ammunition I needed to make my next move. That was my light bulb moment… It was time for me to get off the short bus! LOL

The word “Wait” has positive and negative meanings but it is up to the person to decide the outcome. For me, it is all about the return. If my return in the end will be greater than I am willing to wait but if I know that the return will be negative or even harmful, it is time to say “Goodbye”. No need on waiting because time is constantly ticking. You decide!