TricaB™ : The STENCH....!!

The officer proceeded and he instructed my ex-husband to let me in the house. When I entered I INSTANTLY picked up the stench of another woman. I went through that house like a “Raging Bull” and I can remember the officer telling me to “Please TRY to STAY calm miss!” When I arrived in our bedroom my instincts were right another woman had set up camp and her possessions lay where my things used to lie. If someone would have lit a match I probably would have blown up. This would explain why he was in a hurry to move me out so fast. It was premeditated to REMOVE me from his life. Any excuse to dump me on the side of the road.

I stood in our bedroom and the emotions and pain where starting to drown me. Tears began to fall down my face. The officer stood at the door and asked was I ok? I could not speak; it was like someone had snatched my voice box out of my throat. As I turned my head I could see the officer’s eyes starting to fill with water. My ex-husband stayed in the kitchen telling me to “hurry up” because he had to get back to work. Still I said NOTHING! Everything that I was feeling was running through my head. Somehow my brain was not receiving the signal to my mouth that I need to talk. There was nothing!

As, I look back how did I manage to keep it together? I know for sure that GOD was with me because it was a true miracle!

My mother stayed outside I knew she was praying. As protective as she is of her seed she said nothing. She allowed me to handle the situation. Later on she revealed to me why she stayed outside and kept quiet. (I thought she was praying LOL!) Now in order to protect my mother’s image with her being a minister and all I will refrain from quoting what she told me. But if you have a great imagination just use it for a few seconds and you will get the picture!!! HaHa! Let’s just say it was not pleasant!

My mother is a peaceful but direct woman. MiMi has never been messy or nosy, she always allowed me to be an adult in my relationships. As a matter of fact both of my parents are like that. She doesn’t bother anyone and stays in her lane but if you mess with her seed “Watch out”. This is why I know God was involved because she stayed silent the entire time.

The stench of the woman made me sick however it was familiar. So why did it make me sick this time? Was it because my reality was forcing me to see it? Or was it Rejection and Abandonment causing me to see it? Had those two not shown up would I have still seen it? It was a smell that I had remembered but disregarded it. Long along I had seen the signs but obviously I did not want to accept it.

Her smell was in EVERY room of the house and I could hardly stand it. “Lord what was I thinking?” I said to myself. I finally muscled up enough strength to ask him “How long have you been planning this?” He just stood there with a smirk on his face; the kind of smirk that gives you instant nausea. During all of this the officer continued to show his compassion by asking me “Was I Ok?”

Went into the living room stared at the pictures on the wall and every memory began to play in my mind. Some good and some bad but they were memories that I did not want to part with so soon. Even after all of that I was still hesitant about letting go because I desired to have a life as a “married woman”; Ignorant to the fact that I need to be a “Happily Married Woman”. I thought it is too early to let go we had only been married for two years. That was too soon. “I don’t want to be a divorced woman” I thought over and over to myself. What are people going to think and say? Am I a failure? All of these questions were presenting themselves inside of me. Not realizing that God was rescuing me. He was telling me “Trica I have someone better for you” DUH! God knew this was not my destiny and I deserved better but I did not see that. I SEE IT NOW!! I had no idea at the time how valuable I am to the world.

Went into the garage and my ex-husband had all of my things in boxes and I just stood there in complete shock. I could not believe that my mate, someone that supposedly loved me would do this and feel no remorse about it. Where was I suppose to go? I had nowhere to go! The officer asked me several questions “Did I have a place to stay; how long would it take for me to get my things out of the garage and if I was going to stay in Wisconsin? I could have gone back to Chicago but I chose to stay in Eau Claire Wisconsin to recover for a minute. The other reason why chose to stay was my ex-husband made the MISTAKE of telling that I could not make it without him and I could not survive on my own. (Is he SERIOUS?)

After I went through the house checking every drawer and closet I told the officer I was finish collecting my things. The knots in my stomach were growing stronger and stronger. All of the emotions began to make me sick and I ran out of the house and regurgitated. Not realizing that I was pregnant. My mother and the officer were right behind me; at that point my body could not stand any more stress.

My ex-husband just stood there. I gathered myself and told the officer thank you for his kindheartedness and got in the car. The officer told my mother “Please don’t let her come back to this house alone because she will kill him the next time!” It might sound funny but he was telling the truth. Thank God I can laugh about it now! The officer gave me a hug and told me that he was praying for me and I was going to be just fine. This was a man that I had never met but in those couple of hours he showed me more love than my husband did. It blew my mind. The compassion that oozed from his heart was over- whelming. This officer was REALLY concern and he obviously seen the hurt and pain that was visible on my face. I am still convinced that the Officer was an “Angel” sent from God. On several attempts I tried to locate the officer to say “Thank You” and NO one at the station knew or even heard of him. I could not find that man nowhere in the city of Eau Claire Wisconsin. And people say there is no God!! Sorry but I disagree. God let me know “I got you TRICA”, Fear not for I am with!

The Story Continues…….!

Once you realize your Awesomeness and how priceless you are the world is yours!

-TricaB