For
those that believe in the Power of Choice I dedicate this to you!
I woke up on Sunday
morning edgy and off balance. Which is unusually, Sunday’s are my favorite day
of the week. It’s been a few weeks that I have been on “Nurse Duty” so most of
my focus has been on my mother. However, there is no excuse to wake up “edgy
and off balance” on Sunday morning. The real reason is I just did not want to
be bothered with people or make myself put on a “FACE”…Was not really
interested in pretending.
I had no intention of going
to church on Sunday, but it worked out where my father was able to relieve me
of my duty. There was a small voice that insisted “GET UP TRICA YOU NEED TO BE AT CHURCH TODAY”. Of course I argued
and tried to negotiate with that voice but it was not working. For those of you that have already concluded that I am a perfect little
church girl … “NEWS FLASH” -à
I’m NOT! Just like the rest of the
world I get tired and things get on my last nerve.
I am not afraid to
admit that sometimes “TricaB” can be a mess in a half. Still a work in
progress! Began to get ready for church and every negative thought that was
possible began to rise in my head. Prayed,
quoted scriptures, and sang songs, nothing worked. I really struggled inside
and could not seem to put my finger on it.
There are times when I
feel like am I the only one that is
really passionate about God. Many times I get made fun of or even talked
about but it doesn’t matter. People automatically assume that I am being “deep” because I chose to put GOD in everything .
So what is wrong with that? I
am in love with God, it’s just that simple. Would you call it “deep” if you talk about your “Boo” all
the time? No I don’t think so. When you
are “In Love” with something or someone you want the whole world to know about
it. His/Her name is frequently spoken out of your mouth. As a matter of fact
they are always in your head. So again, I ask “What is wrong with being in Love with God?”
Please forgive me I
digress!
Had a conversation with
someone wise and they made it clear that “the
gift is not for yourself, it is for the world so use it”! You will wake up
many mornings emotions will take over and “putting
on face” will not be an alternative.
Have you ever had one of those
days where you could not find a “face to put on”?
The entire time in the
car I was praying because I just knew if somebody says anything that is off the wall I might have to go back to
the altar. Like for real “TricaB was not having it”! It
sounds funny but this is exactly how I felt and meant every word of it! There is no need to pretend sometimes, it helps
to just be honest with yourself. I call it self-assessment.
The word had taken
place and I began to feel a lot better. The pastor spoke on “Choices”, we as
individuals are responsible for our own success. There is no need to blame the
world for things that have not happen in your life. Earlier that week I had
already been discussing this exact same issue.
As the day began to progress there was a powerful moment that took place
around 1:50p.m at church. Those that were present know exactly what I am
referring to.
So, I sat back in the
seat and humbled myself because I knew something extraordinary was about to
take place. It might sound crazy but I felt it! It was my turn to speak and “the gift” began. Before I knew it
words of life began to pour out of my spirit. Tears began to fall from my eyes
and of course the room was filled with love. My eyes scanned the room and tears
were in everyone’s eyes.
There was a real sense
of freedom and release for those that were present. I began to see how
important “the gift” is. Being
present Sunday was ordained by God. It had nothing to do with me; it was about The
Power Choice.
The
Power of Choice is fascinating to me because one simple
act can change an entire room of people. All I did was respond to the voice of
God, because I chose to override my
feelings. It was hard but well worth it. Many confirmations were made about
what was spoken and it made my heart happy. It spite of all the negative things
that were running around in my head God knew where my heart was.
This gave me freedom
knowing that I could be a blessing to someone. But in reality I was blessing
myself. You never know what individuals are praying. My prayer is “Lord keep me at the right place at the
right time”. There are a lot of hurting people out there. In ministry it is
SO important to be sensitive to the needs of people. ßStill learning! I am guilty of NOT
wanting to humble myself in order to hear. I always come up with creative
excuses not to listen to the voice of God. But end up paying a price for it. We
want God to hear us immediately, so what is the problem? We all have The Power of Choice so I invite you to choose
Life!
This day
I call the heavens and the earth as witnesses against you that I
have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now
choose life, so that you and your children may live and that you
may love the Lord your God,
listen to his voice, and hold fast to him. – Deuteronomy 30:19-20
We
must believe in free will, we have no choice. - Isaac Bashevis Singer
Peace & Blessings!
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