Let me start off by
saying.... WOW!!!....This week produced blessings, direction, and clarity.
There are no words to describe the faithfulness of my God...He has completely
BLOWN my mind this week. If you’re faithful to God, I know for a fact he will
be faithful to you. There was a moment of self reflection and personal
assessment and I had to be honest with myself in order to realize what I needed
to change.
Self -Reflection is not a
comfortable thing. It can be painful and extremely scratchy. I got to a point
where I was desperate to hear from God & did not care where or whom it came
from; all I wanted was a word from the Lord. I was stalking and chasing after
God like never before. All I wanted was direction from him and he gave it to
me. Seek and ye shall find – (Matthew 7:7)
It can be a fight dealing
with the good and bad of our own self. This is a battle because we want to be
in control often. What we see can sometimes be disappointing so we try to do
things are our own way not realizing we don't have much power at all. For me, I
wanted to help God...DUH, SERIOUSLY
TRICA!!! This is a perfect example of; stubbornness being a negative. I was
so determine to do things my way because I felt that God was taking WAY TO
LONG...So naturally, “my way” didn't work...! Go Figure!
So after the thousandth
time of being a complete block-head I just STOPPED. I could hear a small voice
saying "slow down, I am God so let
me do this"...This kept repeating for many weeks but I ignored it
because I was determined to do it MY WAY...After wearing myself out I just
dropped everything and shut down my brain. This was hard to do!!! But once I
did that, things began to happen for me in a way that I cannot describe.
The dictionary describes
insanity as doing the same thing over and over again and getting the same
results. So I began to asses my actions and found out that MY WAY was not
working. To be completely honest, I was drained and aggravated. I like
progression in every area of my life. Scared and panic began to set in because
my age was saying that time is running out and you still haven't done this or that.
God had to really slow me down and I had to learn to wait on him.
"RIGHT NOW" has
always been my way of thinking. Waiting, what is that? Trica doesn't like to
wait on anybody or anything!! BUTTTTTTT.....As they say "time does bring
about a change". My mother tells me all the time" Life has a way of calming your behind down"… Needless
to say she was right!
Let’s just say; Lesson
Learned. The results of giving- up control have brought me so much peace and
confidence in God. We all have to acknowledge that we are human and there will
be times when you doubt yourself and your strength. But God is the greatest
strength and he can be that strength for you. This is not what I heard but what
I know!! Be completely honest with yourself and assess the things in your life that
could use a little upgrade. Get your "Focus" on and find out
"what do I need to do in my life that is blocking me from hearing God's
voice?” In my case it was ME. I had to get out of my own way...
Don't Block your own
blessings which can lead to everlasting Happiness!!!
My
prayer: Lord help me to be cautious of when or how I do
things and help me not to get so wrapped up in my world that I fail to notice
the people and things around me. If I mess up forgive me and help me to be
consistent in being “thoughtful” with the people in my life. Don’t allow
selfishness and self- absorption to get in the way of me enjoying a great and
fulfilling life.
"God speaks when we shut our mouths
and open our spirits"- TricaB
Till Next Time!
Trica B
