I really don’t know how to sum up these last
several months. Just when I thought have seen enough of everything here comes something
else. Constant movement, life changing events and having the ability to adjust
to them steadily has not been easy for me. However, it has taught me a lot
about myself. The biggest thing that I have learned is CONFIDENCE in thy self.
I have never in all my days seen a society that is so insecure and unsure of
their ability to succeed. The only way they can be validated is through the
public, social media, significant other or whomever. It seems as though the
world has turned into ONE big competition. And for WHAT?!?! What do you have to
prove and why are you doing it is the question?!?
Social media and TV is slowly contaminating
an entire generation of strong and well able young people. I think my frustration
stems from the lack of purpose for life. If you have been following me you
already know that I am a “God Chaser”. I love God with every fiber of my being
and that will NEVER change. Yes I was born and raised in the Great oh’ Church
Of God In Christ. However, that is not my purpose for life or why I love God!
My relationship with God is the greatest and
most valuable thing that I can offer to the world. Meaning, how I live and
conduct myself outside of church is what attracts people. That is the reason
for my existence. I was created to worship God, not to be competitive and allow
pointless things to define me. It has nothing to do with carrying a bible, shouting/dancing
the best or wearing the biggest Jesus pin you find. I am so not impressed with
any of that! No disrespect but I have found out that none of this stuff
matters. When trouble came knocking at my door carrying the bible wasn’t going
to get it. Once I opened the bible and began to get God for myself my life
changed.
God had to build my confidence. And over the
years I have found out, don’t expect others to build you up all the time because
the day you need it most you will not get it! That is why I said you must have
confidence in yourself through the word of God! Yes you are enough! Yes you can
make it! Yes you are strong! Yes you are beautiful! Yes you can succeed. Believe
me there are many days I struggle with this. I don’t always feel like I can do
it! For me quoting the word of God is the quickest depression killer... “I
can do all things through Christ that strengthen me”- Philp 4:19.
Immediately, I start to replay some of the
traumatic experiences that God has brought me through and how I have been given
a second chance at Life, Love and Everlasting happiness. Now, I can firmly say
that all of those experiences was for the making of me. Say whatever you want
about me but “I love what I see when I look at me”. God is responsible
for putting confidence and self - love inside of me. It was NOT my bae, boo,
significant other or whatever you want to call it. It was Jesus! Once God puts
that confidence inside of you no HUMAN can remove it! Humans can be very
temperamental, but Gods love is eternal. And with that love you will not feel
the need to be competitive. Competition becomes null and void. The only
competition is yourself which is to become stronger, and more self-assured.
Everything that you need God has already put
it inside of you to win. The goal is for you to tap into it and RUN toward your
destiny. Life distractions can cause you to lose focus and not be able to zone
into those abilities but I assure you that ANY and ALL things can be done
through Christ that strengthens you. The last time I check Gods word does not
lie!
The confidence that I have, I have worked
hard to get and it only gets better with time and the wisdom of God! Stop
allowing others, the world, social media, etc. to give you what you need to
feel important. To be completely transparent all of that stuff doesn’t matter
when you are hurting. Not saying that social media is a negative vice all the
time but, it serves a purpose for certain things. There are a lot of good
things about social media just use it wisely.
Lastly, If you are fortunate to have a great
support system around you. Such as family friends, co-workers, pastor etc. that
have been consistent in your life, hold on to them because good friends are
VERY hard to find! (That is a WHOLE different subject I could really preach
about it if I wanted too but I am not!!) Some individuals have NO concept of
what a good friend is even after you have shown them. Looorrrttttt!!! Any whooo!!…I am going to leave that alone for
now.
“I love what I see when I look at me”-TricaB
